eyes on me.

and I'm fine. I'm okay with the waiting, the aching, the-
sewing my lips into a smile until you can't tell that I'm breaking;
i make jokes when I'm sad and laugh loudest on days I want to cry but hey
as long as you smile. as long as you look at me
with that interest in your eyes
this will be the most elaborate performance of my life
I'm addicted to your curiosity like it's heroin,
my heroine,
this excitement and ecstasy, this euphoria, it consumes me
I keep coming back for another grin, another giggle
and the time between them spans decades-
while I'm tormented in the middle
but it's what an artist does- dance until my
feet are bruised and my organs scream;
I promise to charm you till I'm left to bleed, until I'm left with
a fervent intoxication that pulls me deep
as a promise to escape the pain of it all.
I'm on fire, I'm flying, I'll never fall
as long as you promise to keep your eyes on me.