cut me out.

cut me out. and do it like a man.
the knives are on the table. my heart is in your hands
cut me out and do it right
im tired of spending these nights waiting
wondering. aching. confused. yearning.
for a moment that will never find me,
for a home that was never mine.
every memory of us is haunting
and I’m just an ghost- lonely, lost,
wandering across these torn down hallways
cut me out before i turn completely pale
i recognize the cold and the distance but these days
I’ve been so forgetful
and every knock on the door sounds like it’s you
so spare me from my convoluted delusions and it’s
ever recurring miseries and just
cut me out. cut me open. split me in two
being kind is the cruelest thing you could do
to a girl you have nothing more to give
than a goodbye
cut me out. it is what i deserve
for having carried in my chest a long darned time
all this love that has nowhere to go
and will never find its way back to me
my soul has been tethered to you for what feels like eternity,
cut me out. please. I want to leave.